Gratitude 1/1/20

1. The rush of aliveness that comes with my spring phase.

2. Chosen silence.

3. I’m excited to breath deeply and push all the passion bubbling up inside me through my veins and finger tips and toes and beyond.

4. I’m excited about the possibilities a day does bring. The blessings and gratitude and understanding or just the light that will be shining somewhere that I feel even if I cannot see.

5. I’m excited for coffee and stretches and snacks and vitamins and making offerings of love and affection to my Earth bound body.

6. I’m excited for a late night and late morning.

7. I’m excited for meditations and visualizations that open windows and doors in the dusty, dark, and lonely rooms of my mind and let freshness and light flood in.

8. I’m excited for me. And all the time and energy and love and peace that was inherited in my seed. I’m thankful for the ways it makes me live.

9. I’m excited I might share this with someone and they could feel a connection with me and move into an empty place in my life that I’ve been saving for them.

10. I’m excited for the magic and wonder and unique texture of this day. And how it can hold me no matter what and I will not sink through or break it’s seams with any amount of my human concern. It will just hold me sure and steady and a little bit rhythmic like you hold a young thing, swaying left to right and pressing it’s little head to your chest so that it can hear and feel the strong beat of your willingness and mentorship.

11. Thank you to the Being or Beings that have picked me up and rocked me all my life.

Flow Rituals

I know I desire a slow form of living this year. So that I can notice more and pay tribute to more and let myself flow.

I’m learning what slows me and delights me. Quietude. Sometimes writing my way through noisy storms in my mind. Some times just sitting, watching, breathing.

I want to pause more I guess. When I’m enjoying something I want to stretch it out. Make it last, collect and keep a piece of its essence for fuel.

Ways to keep my flow:

Brain dump lists

Being outside

Candle light in darkness

Dancing

Folding laundry

Gratitude lists

Posture and breath practices

Push ups

Slow sex

Sweet savored sips or bites

Water breaks

Yoga

Ps. Do you have stay in the flow rituals? Please share.

What are Your Wins?

A couple of friends and I recently added a Wins Celebration Day to our monthly calendars. Around the time of the new moon we gather, have dinner, and share with each other our wins from the previous cycle. We talk about blocks we overcame, goals we reached, things we are working toward. We discuss the Universal magic, miracles, and unexpected awesomeness that were sprinkled into our most recent cycle.

The win celebration is a ritual of acknowledgment, accountability, and appreciation. We lavish ourselves in luscious endorphins and empowering antidotes, we feel supported and supporting, we make note of recent growth and excitement of the future growth that embodies the energy of a new moon and the end/beginning of a cycle.

Ps. Please feel free to share your Wins from the last moon cycle in the comments. We can celebrate together here!

Manifestation Maps

What’s the next way you want to feel? What pieces, people, and possibilities are involved?

What if you had a Manifestation Map that helped you know, remember, do, and have this feeling you desire, this thing you crave?

Make a Manifestation Map – a list that clarifies and leads you towards your deepest desires. Most importantly it gives you the words to collect and utilize your power.

How to make a Manifestation Map:

First, write the name of your desire, goal or simply the feeling you want at the top of a piece of paper. Be careful and intention-based with the name. Use positive language. Say what you want. Not what you don’t want. Throw some adjectives in to help you clarify the feeling you want. The name itself should give you all the feels.

Examples:
– Body Bliss Map (a map for optimizing my energy and increasing my vitality)
– Relaxing Family Vacation Map (a map for planning the vacation we all want/need)
– Dream Job Map (a map for manifesting work that supports and satisfies me)

Second, start listing your “Must-haves.” The things that need to happen in order for you to feel like your basic needs are taken care of.

Examples:
– I make $2000 (or more) a month.
– Involves fitness plan and activity routines that can be done even if I have kids with me.
– Tickets are $700 (or better) per ticket, round trip.

Third, list what would make it even sweeter. What things would fill you with immense amounts of gratitude. Now you are getting some strong vibes.

Examples:
– Our Airbnb hosts are friendly, helpful, and inspiring. (maybe we become lifelong friends!)
– My job allows me lots of time alone to think and have quiet time.
– Fitness plan includes learning new forms and practices that are full-body practices.

Fourth, add things that would be blow-your-mind good. Things you might consider “too good to be true.” We can not look for what we are unwilling to mention. So at least crack a window for magic to fly into your life and land happily on the end of your nose.

Examples:
– On our travels, we meet soul-mates, investors/supporters and find all the resources and people we need to succeed in our growing business.
– My fitness plan is addictive/meditative/blissful.
– My job offers paid holidays, bonuses, and unimaginable bounty.

Finally, read back through your list, make adjustments, add the “or betters.”

Example:
– I make $2000 (or more) a month.
– Tickets are $700 per person – or better.
– The itinerary includes long layovers to recover and explore new cities along the way.

Reread your list. Lean into each thing. Feel it’s feels, bask in the vibes. Dwell in the possibilities. Marvel over the endless resources and abundant, unseen, or unknown opportunities.

This is how we collect our power. This power we collect makes things move in and around us, propelling us towards our desires. So get ready to feel like a mother fucking wizard.

Keep the map close. Put it on your fridge, tape it to your bathroom mirror. Read through it often. If you are more visual use this list as a blueprint for a vision board. If you are moved by sound find songs or write ditties that talk about the feelings you’ve outlined. Or boldly pronounce the intentions you listed to a friend, a pet, an empty room, a house plant, or the comment section below. Life has ears in each of these places. Creation itself has stores of possibilities to flick into motion. So send out sparks with your thoughts and words.

Our power travels as far as our minds can reach. Blessed be our sweet and wondrous manifestations! Let us delight in slow deliberate growth.

Ps. Please feel free to share bits of your Manifestation Maps in the comments. Your ideas could be a light bulb for me or others. All the best! – Kenzie

Body of Light

I do feel better now. The last few days my mind has been tripping over all kinds of things. Searching. Taste testing. Falling from heights I did not realize were inside of me.

Then I decide to go home – The simple but often forgotten practice of rediscovering my body. It’s a slow, patient, process that I don’t always believe there is time for. But I can’t forget it’s power. I bask in how it went. Grabbing toes, turning on the little muscles that make my ass and thighs shake. Twitching, counting, dancing, having little contests with myself. The smell of my hair as it tickles my nose in a long held pose, hints of sage and cinnamon. The stretch and lengthening that my breath creates, against the beat of rhythms that turn the lights down in my mind, make all the rough spots smooth, and the uncertain spots strong.

Remembering that I have a body always helps with the anxiety that comes this time of year. Remembering My roots, remembering I belong in this place, in this vessel that is governed by universal laws. I am not “on the outside” of anything. This shelter I call my body is made of the same elements that have produced planets, including the one I live on. All the lifeforms here (including me) are bits of her flesh. The same processes that propel the moon and stars move me through time and space as well. I am part of the body of life. I’m a sliver of the infinite.

And it’s all going to be ok.

Then there is nothing “too” big anymore. Things are small and put in there proper proportions. Human drama = minuscule, loneliness = impossible, Life = unstoppable, this moment = everything I need.

I know I am loved now. I can relax into unfathomable billows of love. Because this body, this planet, this Life are propelled by a kind of life-giving love. And it shows me how to be the one who loves me. Because Love is embedded in this “going” we call time. It is the ancient root that tendrils us all.

Ps. This song.

Delight in slow deliberate growth.

Don’t force it.
Just enjoy the build up.
So it’s slow.
Let it be slow.
Let your breath and limbs relish in its tension.
Let trust envelop the philosophers in your mind.
Let it wax.
Let it wan too.
It will come back around.

Press into it.
Appreciate its pulp.
The sweet illusive magic of its essence.
Explore its subtle edges.
That bleed like water color into the rest of life.

what I know

1. I know what it’s like to have different colored days
2. I know the wash of the moon as it travels on its monthly journey
3. I know the smell of fear
4. And the whisper of faith
5. I know what it’s like to love like the Moon loves the sea, it can be a secret, subtle, lonely bliss
6. I know the break of the boards beneath my feet.
7. I know the flip of frustration
8. And the chains of stagnation
9. And the halo of bright righteous peace
10. I know what reunion feels like
11. I know what a map can cover up
12. I know the words that might turn me inside out
13. I know clinging
14. I know detachment
15. I know this moment in time is a fraction of the infinite
16. I know the more I know the less I know
17. I know I’m ready for anything, because I have to be
18. I know there’s rules in this game
19. I know it’s a game
20. I know Curiosity and I know Hunger (and they are siblings)
21. I know Passion and it’s illusive sparkle and brilliant code of suffering
22. I know the power of words
23. I know the love of a seed
24. I know the season of Grief, it is Transformation’s prerequisite
25. I know really good love is drenched in laughter
26. And mistakes and trying
27. I know singing will stop anxiety in its tracks
28. I know the seed of courage is vulnerability
29. I know 120 seasons
30. I know 30 trips around the sun